Alphabet City 4 by Jamell Crouthers

Author:Jamell Crouthers
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Jamell Crouthers
Published: 2022-01-15T00:00:00+00:00

My Kids Are Fighting To Survive

Jermaine and Shameka were rushed into surgery,

Trying to fill out paperwork for the both of them was impossible.

My memory wasn’t there, I had lost my train of thought so many times,

I had to ask the registrar to repeat her questions multiple times.

I kept apologizing for spacing out as I was lost in my own world,

Thinking of the worst case scenarios that could potentially happen.

Jermaine lives and can’t walk anymore and Shameka dies,

Or Shameka makes it and Jermaine doesn’t make it.

Then I thought of they both make it but Jermaine is paralyzed for life,

He won’t be able to walk ever again and that changes his whole life.

I had to get out of my head and fill out the paperwork,

So the registrar can put it in the system for their records.

She needed my insurance card, thankfully I had it on me,

I didn’t remember the member ID number for my insurance carrier.

My kids were fighting to survive and I felt so guilty for not protecting them,

There wasn’t much I could do, the shootout just suddenly happened.

I didn’t have time to tell my kids to get down or get behind a car,

I was looking to see where the bullets were coming from and they were coming from all different directions.

My kids have seen and dealt with so much in their childhood,

I know they never thought they’d see the day where bullets would hit them in the neighborhood they’ve grown up in.

Scary for them but also for me in so many ways,

Sadly they’ve lost classmates to shootings in the neighborhood.

It impacts you in many ways but you don’t think it would happen to you,

You prepare for it and even when you do, you’re still hit with a bullet.

I’d spend most of my night in the hospital with groceries by my side,

Sitting in the waiting room alone, sad, crying and making so many phone calls to family members.

They were all ready to book flights to come my way to help me,

So many aunts, uncles and cousins were all scared and terrified of what happened.

I remember after the phone calls sitting the hospital waiting room feeling a numbness inside of me,

Trying to process what happened and feeling so helpless.

For years, my children’s lives were depended on me and what I did,

Now I sit here forced to put my life in the hands of doctors and surgeons.

You never think that would ever happen to your children,

It crosses your mind living in Alphabet City but you never think it will come to fruition.

It would be an agonizing four hours before I heard about Shameka,

Then add an additional four hours for a total of eight hours before I knew of Jermaine’s status.

Shameka’s status was good to hear that she’ll be okay,

That she’ll deal with a lot of pain for the next few weeks but to take things slow with her.

Her being shot in the stomach will affect her eating and how digestion happens,

It’ll be a lot of light food, nothing too solid and hard to digest.

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